Posts tagged ‘Relationships’

June 16th- Long Exposure & A Song That Makes You Cry

I’ve never taken a long exposure photo, and even if I were able to use my camera right now, I don’t believe it has the option to take one, so I had to turn to Google once again for today’s picture. I love New York City, and figured there’d be some cool pictures of traffic and what not. This is one of Times Square.

A Song That Makes You Cry:

“You Lost Me” by Christina Aguilera

This song is so sad… SO sad. It doesn’t make me cry upon hearing it, as I don’t cry very easily unless given a significant reason, but the emotion in this song is so powerful to me. I’m pretty sure I listened to it quite a few times when my boyfriend and I were going through an extremely hard time last summer, and I’m pretty sure it made my tears flow harder. I know a lot of people can’t stand the vocal gymnastics that Christina often displays, but I personally love her voice and vocal stylings and this song shows off her talent really well.


June 18, 2012 at 12:11 pm Leave a comment

May 15th- Love

Me and my boyfriend, Jon. This picture was taken the year we started dating- I can’t believe it’s been 10 years!!! ❤

May 15, 2012 at 8:28 pm Leave a comment

I Won’t Give Up

I’m so loving this song by Jason Mraz at the moment- so sweet and pretty!

I Won’t Give Up

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
Still looking up

I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

February 21, 2012 at 12:14 pm Leave a comment

What? I Have A Blog?

So, after a few years of not blogging I decide to create one, update a few times, then forget about it. Go me! 🙂 A lot has been going on, but recently I’ve had a lot of time on my hands so it’s time to free my brain of some of these thoughts I’ve been having and let WordPress have them. Needless to say, this is going to be a long one!

I was just reading my last post, and it’s kind of sad. I was talking about all of the things I had to look forward to for the remainder of the summer… and well, things definitely didn’t go as planned. I did get to see Britney Spears in August, which was awesome because I love me some Britney. I was going to travel a few hours to Cleveland with a friend to see her, but literally days before we were going to buy our tickets and set our trip in stone she added a date to Pittsburgh! My Dad was able to get some box seats through his job, so I ended up going with him, my stepmom, and my son. He’s 7, and he likes Britney, so I figured it was a good opportunity to take him to his very first “real” concert. I’m constantly playing her music in the car and whatnot, so he doesn’t really have a choice but to be a fan, haha. He really enjoyed it, though. DJ Pauly D from the Jersey Shore was one of her opening acts, and he played a bunch of current radio songs, so Tyler really got a kick out of that. He was even fist pumping, lol! It was fun that I got to go with my Dad because he was the one that took me to all of my pop concerts back in the day. We’re still waiting for an NSync reunion tour, hear that Justin?! 😉 I was supposed to go on a week long road trip/vacation to Nashville with my cousin later that month, but ended up running into some trouble, both financially and otherwise, so we had to cancel. That was a total let down. You have no idea how badly I needed (and still do) a vacation and I was so looking forward to it. 😦 I’m trying to live by the “shit happens” motto, but we’re both still really bummed about it.

Aside from all of that fun stuff, I ended up running into a major setback with my boyfriend. Let’s just say we were all out for our friend’s 21st birthday, drinking obviously, I got some attention from a hot guy, and I took it… oops. Biggest problem of that situation? This hot boy just so happened to be our friend’s cousin… bigger oops. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 10 years and have been having problems for a few years now, so it was only a matter of time before one of us did something drastic…. especially when alcohol is involved. Since then we have been getting better, I think. I hope. It would be a shame to waste 10 years over something so dumb, but we have to work out all of our other problems in order for things to truly work out. We’ve been having a lot more time apart which I think was part of the problem to begin with. You can only take being around someone 24/7 for so long until you need some breathing room. We’re still both around for our son and he’s fine with everything that has been happening, and that’s the most important thing.

So basically, the summer ended up being a total flop, aside from Britney. I can’t believe it’s already November. I love the fall, so I hate that it always goes by so fast. Before we know it, Christmas will have come and gone. 😦 I’m super bummed that Halloween is already over. I always look forward to Halloween and all of the costume parties! I went as Snooki for the the 2nd year in a row… I usually hate repeating costumes but I just pull her off way too well, haha. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing, but it is what it is! 😛

I’ve been desperately searching for a new job for the past month or so. After 3 years of gaining absolutely nothing from my previous job, I needed to get the hell out of there in order to save some pride. I can only get dicked over so many times before I snap. Other than that, I guess that pretty much catches me up on what’s been happening with my life from the last time I actually blogged. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep up with this from now on!

November 9, 2011 at 4:28 pm Leave a comment

Maybe If…

Maybe I wouldn’t be so damn miserable if…

Your friends weren’t around MY living area every single day.

You didn’t drink yourself to a drunken stupor with said friends at least 5 days out of any given week.

You put forth a little effort to actually grow up, get a stable job, and help get us out of this hell hole of a living situation.

You weren’t choosing to tend to your friends’ needs and wants over your family’s.

You didn’t back track your life for the past two years.

You valued my opinions as someone who loves you, and wants to be happy with you, rather than “that crazy, frigid, bitch who’s always miserable about something,” and see that I’m only trying to push you to better yourself and your life rather than get drunk and hang out with a bunch of college-aged kids.

You actually kept promises to your son and I.

You didn’t make me feel like I have to fight your friends for your attention all of the time.

You and your friends didn’t always intentionally try to make me feel like the odd man out of everything you do… occasionally “allowing” me to tag along with you and 5 other guys while you behave like inebriated monkeys does NOT count. ESPECIALLY when you have to ask them for permission. Really? REALLY?! I don’t remember EVER being asked when they decide to show up at MY house with a half gallon of cheap ass liquor on a random week night, while we should be focusing on our son and making sure he’s getting ready for school the next morning.

Maybe if you GREW A PAIR AND GREW UP I wouldn’t have to act like a crazy bitch of a girlfriend all of the time… trust me, this does not make me feel good. In fact, it drives me to the brink of insanity having to babysit you just to try and have some sort of stability in our relationship, and be a united front for our son. But I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this. I’m not claiming priesthood upon myself here, I know I’ve done things in the past within our relationship that you don’t agree with, but there comes a time when enough is enough, and if this is going to work the way I know we both want it to, one of us has to take action, or the bond and family unit we’ve created over the past 9 years will continue to unravel, and we’ll become another statistic…..

Trust me, I want you to have friends… I sure as hell don’t want to have to deal with you 24/7… but is some balance and growth in our lives so much to ask?

Sorry, but I had to get that off of my chest before I ended up spewing it out at an inappropriate time in front of the wrong people.

June 4, 2011 at 4:36 am Leave a comment

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Hello, I'm Amy! I was born in '85 and live in Pittsburgh, PA. I became the mama of my wonderful son in 2004, and also own 3 kitties that I treat like children. I am a self-admitted cosmetics and beauty addict, but I also enjoy fashion, music, art, and am totally guilty of reading way too much celebrity gossip. :P

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